reconsideration

Mom asked me to quit The One and continue my study
in my hometown, Taipei.

I refused and rejected.



1 month later, she asked again.

Remain silent when she asked.



Now.

I need to reconsider about it, again.

Clear my mind and make up my mind.


As soon as possible.

Looking for M.A.C Hello Kitty Lip Gloss

Is anyone selling M.A.C Hello Kitty Lip Gloss?


Looking for it, pls do msg me ya ;)

Love

Love is not possession.

You like the moon, it is impossible to take it down and place it in the basin,

But the moon's ray may still shine into you room.

In other words, when you love a person, you may also use other ways to have them,

Let love be the eternal memories of your life.

If you really love a person, you should love him as a whole – loves his good, also loves him bad;

Loves his merit, also loves his shortcoming.

Don’t try to change him the way you want just because you love him,

You don’t love him any more if he failed.

You can’t explain why when you truly love a person.

You only know regardless of when and where, feeling good or feeling bad, you hoped that this person will be by your side;

True lovers can past through hard times together, unconditionally without asking for repay.

After all, love is giving, rather than just taking;

Separate is a kind of inevitable test,

If your love is not strong enough, you have no choice but to admit defeat.

True love will not turn into resentment.

I got this text above from my friend's blog (Evelyn). I received this sms form from Joanne before. I'm glad I can be able to find it back as the sms was saved in my previous phone which already got snatched from the robber.

This a very meaningful where I can hardly to forget.

Current situation: In a mess & speechless

Bye

Will never be the same again


Goodbye to my little pink castle.


It's time to say goodbye


and


re-build it.


It takes time.



Goodbye ;)

Another hectic hectic hectic hectic week I had.
And I finally managed to spare out some time to update you guys.
Hectic weeek because?
The major one of cos will be my assignments, killing me badly.
The consequences of having DOZEN of assignmentsssss
(Yesss, really dozen of assignments, trust me)
and when you know the due date are all fall in the same week?
Holy shyt, there's only one word to describe - DEAD!
. . I'm DEAD . .
Owh ya, consequences definitely will be lack of sleeep,
frustrated, stresss up and hairs fall like nobody business.
I really can see my hair everywhere or
whenever I comb my hair or even "touch" my hair,
I can see my hair is flying without wings ! ! LOL!
Funny dou!


On the other hand,
I kinda screwed up, pissed, and disappointed toward some
people's bloody attitude/thinking.
-Who the fuck you think you are? Stop being over sensitive
towards small little thing. Grow up pls -
I do not wish to mention the person here and talk
abt what was going on.
I would just like to keep it to myself, my bf and my close friends,
tats it, oh yeah, and keep a distance with that person.
I didn't know that a friend can be so fake so so so fake.
When you truly treat her as a friend, which going to
climb up to another level which is close friend
and yet I really thought of
we do really have the chance..
Nah, what do you return back to me?
A piece of shyt. And yet, it's amazingly sting.
Truly impressed of you.


Okayz, let's forget about that bitch ya ;)
I drank kinda a lot this week.
Drank alot of wurt? What else people, beer & liquor man of cos.
Been drinking for 3 days man.
Happy hour, sing k session drank like nobody business again
& yesterday night Chris Chen's bday celebration @ Rachel's place :)
I'm an Authentic alcoholic, you can never doubt.
It's one of the way to release your tension, your stresss,
your madness, your sadness and your frustration!
YES! 1/3 of my drinking session was my sad drinking session
How sad har.
Again, do not wish to mention what was the sad thing.
The only thing I can say I never had this feeling before,
which is numb to everything.
No feelings, no sadness, no anger, no, nothing at all.
I totally feel nothing. Is a very bad sign har? I guess so.


Owh ya nearly forgot something which wanto remind you guys.
Last Tuesday I wento KimGary, Sunway Pyramid.
I ordered cold "Yin Yong", when I finished more than half a cup,
I was still drinking, and out of sudden I felt something
inside my mouth.
At first I though it was tissue because there were full of tissue
on the table as we kept wiping the table this and that,
so it might be accidentally dropped into my yin yong.
BUT THEN!!!!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!
It wasn't tissue, it was a bloody small cockroach! !
Oh man, so bad luck of me.
So people out there, after reading this,
pwease be aware okiez! ;(



Guess it's time to let your eyes to relax relax
which reading such an long esssay =_=
Pictures time.

So Poh Wendy and I were in the Design II classs
while waiting for our turn to present our artworks.
Camwhoring with my laptop.
HAHA. We were just too bored, understandable la kiez?
Can't imagine I posted the last pic of me =_=
GHOST! Do I have the potential to act in the horror movie?
Do you guys realize this so poh wendy's expression, NO DIFF AT ALL! Worst than me...HAHAHAHAAHAH

Suddenly pop up 2 middle fingers.
Thanks to Patrick and Wen Chien for
"brighten up" the picture!

Wendy . Jocelyn . Wen Chien
busy camwhoring while having the presentation.
As usual, we were still the noisiest in the class.

Yess, my little Tommy.
It's a Golden Retriever, 2 months old.
HaHa, I wish he's mine.
Unfortunately, it belongs to Auntie Nicole, neighbor of my baby.
Guess Tommy is still young, because it's so shy!
He dared not to walk out from his small little "castle".
Baby and I tried so so so damn hard to "Seduce" him out
of his little "castle".
*sweating sweating*

Tommy was so afraid of the ball, but my baby damn bad,
he kicked the ball towards Tommy in purpose.
*piak you*!

Tommy was playing with the cloth.
I heart the picture on the right.
It's now the wallpaper of my mobile phone ;)

Finally, my Canon has arrived ;)
Still being a noob of using it.
HaHa..

♥ Awwww heart heart =)

Recent addiction

Yesss! Recent addiction is
> C U P C A K E <
So so so in lurve with it.
I think I'm currently in lurve with cup cake more than my bf..
Oppss, I said sth wrong !
It suppose to be:
I'm currently thinking of the cup cakemore than my bf
*bleuk*
I lurve the cupcakesssss,
they are so so so the very tempting nya !
The cupcake is like... is like...
is like trying to seduce me.
And yes, it is successful of seducing me very badly...

Gosh!!!!

The other reason why I'm currently in love with cupcake
is because of the following:
#1 Design - creative ! !
#2 Colorful
*They know how to catch the customer's attention*
#3 Attractive
#4 SMELL so yummy yummy


No matter how, I'm totally in lurve ♥


Well,
let the pictures tell everything!
You're gonna be one of the victim :P
Just like me babyyy!

I heart this so much!

Woo, even Playboy also advertise in cup cake!
*haha, bullshyt me*!

Ginger man cup cake!
Kesian lah, why the head and body are separated???

Dog says,"I wanto eat you I wanto eat you so badly!!!!"
*Roaarrrrrrrrrr!!!

Even the dog also got attracted from the
cute little ginger man cupcake!!!
Dog falls in lurve with it too.
*Awwww*

Yesterday went to Wonder Milk to buy cupcakes!
Owh yesss!
Well, it's a bit expensive, each MAXI fer RM4.50
WooLaLALa~~~~

I thought of keeping the cupcakes,
they were so "beautiful"
but then hor they were like showing me the innocent look saying,
"Pppeweaseee don't eat me..."
But also in a way of giving me a signal to eat them!!
*Thats y I said its really seducing..*
Owh my god!
What the hell with me wei???

Ended up, all in my stomach!
I'm sorry ;)
yum yum

With love.Babyboo

13/03/2009
Attention! Attention!
It's our
♥ 9 months Anniversary ♥
Wow, time really flies fast har...
It's already 9 months...
baby, I believe we can last forever,
I can see our future ;)

I did something fer my baby using Photoshop..
Well, I'm a photoshop noob,
I didn't know how to use photoshop
as I only attended the Design Workshop II
for not more than 4 times
(I was absent because my stewpid cacat hand)
so basically I'm still so so so lost...


No matter how noob am I, I still tried my very best
to do & edit this picture fer my babyboo.

This is the 1st version.
Baby didn't like the border, so I decided to
take it off and redesign again.

And, this is the latest version.
I know is very cacat,
but I edi tried my very best to make it looks good..
*sigh*
Baby, familiar with the poem?
That's from the lamp you made for me. :)
The background is in Japan during winter,
and it's with snow.
I remember you told me that
you wanto bring me to Japan in the future
to see the snow together.
It's simply romantic to bath with the snow together.


I'm looking forward baby...
Hope you keep your promise ya.
No matter how long does it take,
but I will wait for it patiently.

♥ Thinking of you constantly & loving you endlessly ♥

天助我也。保佑保佑

老妈昨天去拜玉皇大帝。。
也顺道帮我问了一下。。
说啊我今年犯太岁
今年事事都要非常的小心


今年不能吃别人的生日蛋糕
（我的应该能吧。。。）

今年不能去探病

今年不能去丧事

今年走路驾车过马路都要很小心



哎。。 真惨啊！

保佑我啊

Canon Digital IXUS 870IS

HaHaha, I am not going to get the Sony T700 camera!
My coming camera is
Canon Digital IXUS 870IS !
Owh my god, I really can't wait for it man!
Obviously, Canon is better if compare to Sony.
Sony is only good in their design, their outlook...
I made a good choice har :P
*ngek-ngek*
I should can get it within this week
or the latest next week :)

Another independent day for Chris

Another night that I stayed out because of Chris
stayed out (Chris another independent day!)
and invited us for a crazy drinking session.
Didn't see Erica since ages, so I decided to invite her.

Getting old, dislike clubbing anymore
as I already QUIT :)
Congratz me.
So we decided to chill in Republic.

It was my first time to try Guiness on that night.
(Having a promotion for giving
out free jug once we filled out the Guiness survey.)
At first I thought it is an old man drinks,
I was totally wrong until my friends told me
even the a lot of young girls are drinking now as well.
Well, actually it taste good :)
Maybe I just dislike the color of the drink,
no attraction.
HAHaHaHA!

Glad to see Erica :)

Erica . Chris . Jocelyn

baby, you spoil the picture man!

Jocelyn with?
Who else, her zabou loh

The love bird
Kenneth & Chris

Angie Joce Joanne Chris

Baby was missing in action! LOL
Photographer : Mattew Tan Pichay

"We rock!"

The woman he loves.
The man she loves.
*I'll always stand by you*
*I'm belong to you*
*Crazily in love*
*My babyboo*
Big warm hug and kiss fer u ;)

#1 Nowadays people like to show their middle finger...
no good no good...
*LOL*
#2 My baby's tongue is so long neh...

After Republic, Chris & Kenneth decided to bring their Bacardi
Apple over baby's house.
YESSSSSS, continue drinking :P
Chris brought her rummy
and it was actually fun of playing it.
We hung out til 5am in the morning,
well, it's time to say good bye and jump to the
bed oi oi .....


tata

..xoxo..

Trauma

The feeling of afraid in everything is pretty suffering.
I become so so so sensitive toward any small little thing,
voice, and people around me.
Especially during the moment when the moon is
hanging up on the sky.
It's terrible and horrible.
So far that's how I can describe,
I'm bad in expressing my feelings in words.


After the incident which happened to me,
which happened in a month ago.
I got slashed with parang by the the Indian robber
just right in front my house.
Apparently I have 2 major "sexy" scars on my right hand,
2 scars on my left hand which are not really that obvious.
My wounds are healing, getting better,
muscle isn't as pain as before.
However, I still can't carry any single heavy object.
And yet, my right hand is still as numb as before.
Sigh...


The incident really brings me a big impact.
Though the wounds are healing, recovering,
but the pretty sad thing is
memories can never erase from my brain from my mind.
Whenever I look at my wound, memories pop up.
Even I'm not looking at it, the memories still pop up out of no where.
How the robber ran to me, snatched my bag and
slashed me with the parang.
Especially his fierce expression.
And I will definitely got shocked in a sudden ,
my body is shivering like nobody business,
and then my heart beat is jumping fast than usual.



Phobia towards all these things:
#1 Kelisa
#2 Indian
(I'm sorry if any indian is reading d blog,
no offense kayz. I'm not racist but I'm really
scared of indian in this critical moment)
#3 When I'm walking on the street or when I'm alone
#4 Any single sharp and long object
#5 When I hear some cars/motor pass by my
house in the night
#6 People who is walking outside the lorong where the accident happened.
Even people who park their car at the lorong
(My house is corner house, so there's a lorong beside.)
Moreover, I'm also pretty worry for them,
afraid the same thing will happen to them.
#7 Strangers who walk pass me
#8 Clinic and hospital
#9 The purple top when I was wearing on that night
(That's the reason I no longer wearing that top anymore)


I really wanna get rid of this nightmare.
I wanna be strong.
God, please give me the power.
I will truly appreciate it.

home isn't sweet

Everything seems so smooth, so nice, so good during these few days.
Got a couple of good news.

Firstly, I was so excited and looking forward this coming Saturday as
plan to go Republic with my friends and especially Chris.
(Chris is the one who organized it =])
It's been a long time I didn't really drink with her.
Thus I wanna enjoy the night to the max.

Secondly, staying over my hubby's place this Saturday.
I could hug him til I fall asleep, it's amazingly sweet and warm
don't you think so?

Thirdly, I'm gonna get a tattoo soon.
Special thanks to James to give me this "offer".

Out of sudden,
my smile disappear, my excitement is gone, my happiness is gone..
Like a blowing wind...

Mom again. She's always the destroyer.
People always said home sweet home.
For me, home isn't sweet at all, it's bitter.
There's no peace & harmony in my house.
Never ever have a peaceful day in my life.
I don't wish this to happen, I don't want to have a broken family.
What can I do to avoid this to happen?
I'm feeling really helpless right now.
Though I'm super duper upset right now...
none of my tears drop...
Do you know what? Actually my heart is crying...

tagged by Wendy

Once you've been tagged, you have to answer all the question HONESTLY..Lastly choose 6 people to be tagged :)

The zabou Wendy tagged me and forced me to answer back
T_T
so no choice lah... hehe...

How old were you when you had your first relationship ?
♥ 12

Are you taken/single ?
♥ Yes, I'm taken

Do you like anyone right now?
♥ Absolutely no, because I'm only in love with Matthew Tan Pichay

Ever had your heartbroken?
♥ Everyone been thru this wurt...

Miss anyone right now?
♥ Yaaaaa!

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
♥ My hubby

Last person to text you?
♥ My hubby too

Last person you saw?
♥ James & Joanne

What was the last thing you said to someone?
♥ bwaii bwaii

Who is top in your top friends?
♥ As in Facebook or blog or what? LOL

Who do you trust the most in your life?
♥ So far, my hubby

Who do you love most?
♥ My hubby

Ever been in love?
♥ Sigh, kinda fed up with this kind of question man.
Definitely yes. I'm in lurve right now wurt

Who has hurt you the most?
♥ dot dot dot

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
♥ Yes, just happened month ago...

Are you happy?
♥ Yes in this moment ;)

How many good friends do you have?
♥ You know who you are ;)

Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
♥ Yes quite a lot....

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
♥ Sorry to say that, yes. Truly regretted for my ex.

Ever been cheated on?
♥ Yes haha.....

Ever been told someone loved you?
♥ Yessssss

Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
♥ My hubby


What is your idea of true love?
♥ A relationship with full of trust, appreciate each other,
communication, and never ever cheated on yr the other half.
On the other hand, the thought of spending the rest of my life time
with him. Had the urge of marrying him.
Yes, it's him, Matthew Tan Pichay.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
♥ Not really. Even if it really happens, I believe that the relationship
will not last long. I don't know, this is just my opinion and it happened to me.

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
♥ It depends. Too good with each other is hardly to
become couple. It's because you know each other too well already.


Tagged:
♥ Matthew Tan
♥ Joanne Chow
♥ Angie Soon
♥ James Lee
♥ Jasper
♥ Louise

know me better ;)

Rachel tagged me yday night.
The curiosity made me clicked on it...

from here : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

These are all my "outcomes"

ROAR ;)

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
*wow, superb accurate wei about i'm really hiding my true self*

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
*deep shit nya*

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
*yes madam! ganbateh*

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I'm waiting...

Clock is ticking slow...
I'm waiting for my darling ♥ Sony T700 ♥
Can't wait...

The front view of muh darling

The side view.
It's very slim and light.

Argh darling ah darling, when are you coming to my side?
I can't wait to *yang yang* uuuuuuuuu :-P