30 June 2008

why???

why am I crying right now?
why why why why why why why why why why why why????????????????
why am I losing the old Jocelyn???
why???
why am I being so helplesss??????
whyyy????

To Let go...

Found this in my friend's blog....
iz truely meaningful....


To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization that I don't control another.

To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try change or blame another, I can only change myself.

To let go is not to care for, but to care about.

To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow
others to affect their own outcomes.

To let go is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires but to take each day as it comes and to cherish the moment.

To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more...

bwai bwai football fever~

Today iz the football FINAL wei!
Spain (1) vs Germany (0)
Well, I support Spain~
Spain won man =p


Thought of watched at Matthew's hse~cos his mom gonna hse warm
due for the final of football.
But end up, plan changed...so we decided to watch at Subang with Angie, Joann and Yusof~


It's actually the key chain for my car key~
Angie took te sticker and sticked on it..haha~
my keychain iz on fire wei~


My keychain wanna watched football as well. Football fever!!
We were at the Subang mamak nearby Station One. Wow, iz so f*cking crowded!
Most of the people were actually supported Spain, me as well :P
But somehow Angie supported Germany, unfortunately, Germany lose!
I think I better don't wear any red top and mention Spain in front of her :P
cos she was so sad cos Germany lose dy and pissed of people who supported Spain..LOL
So whoever who wear red color shirt or top, u better becarefulll :P
*beware-beware*

Matthew sticked the bomb sticker on it~
Cigg with da bomb, which means the more u smoke, the faster u die :P
LOL...


Well, we were just so bored....until kept on playing around the sticker~



Owh yeah, finally football iz over right now~
I can have a good sleeeep dy xD
Bye EURO Cup~

29 June 2008

Sunday!

Today is Sunday
It's 11.57am
I'm sitting in front of my pc for 2 hours of doing nothing
Suppose to go my mom's saloon, but I'm lazy...mayb later?or mayb no?
Bored like hell
Finding my gal to yumca
3pm...iz so late for me
Cos I bored until grow SPIDER WEB
Thinking want to yumca wif my gal or not
Weather is so nice cos just stopped raining
It's 12.01pm right now

I'm wearing a pink top with a brown show pants
I'm listening to Gary's song....
"Superwoman"
Aww, so sad la this song
Emo Emo Emo
Owh shit!
I don't wanna be Emo lar =(
Must be tough! That's what I keep on telling myself for the whole morning!
Yesterday I slept at around 3.30am
Today woke up at 9.45am

Slept for 6 hours plus...
NooOooo, 6hours wasn't enough for me
Recently, dark circle "pop-up" because of lack of sleep...
Aik Aik, iz very obvious!
At first, I didn't realize until Angie and Joann told me about it!
Owh gosh! Must sleep early dy~
Hope I can make it as well =p *HAHA*!
Out of sudden, I miss Metropolitan so much
I miss CPU the most!
Miss the memories....

Miss, when I was 18 yrs old....
Time flies fast, I'm now 23 years old (AUNTY le!)
Some of my friends said that I dont look like 23 yrs old
Some of my friends said that I look like 19, 20 or 21 ^^
So happy to hear that
Ha-Ha-Ha-HA
Well, it's now 12.11pm!
I am feeling hungry
My stomach comes out witf these sounds
*Gu-lu-Gulu-Gulu-Guuuu-lu*! =_=

But, still raining out there *Sighz*
I think I need to clean my room
There are a lot of things need to throw it away....
A lot A lot A lot A LOT....
Especially flowers
Some soft toys, maybe I will just keep it somewhere
Ya, somewhere....
Listening to the theme song of 200 pounds *Byul*
Regret Regret...make me emo again...!
Change song? but the song iz nice ler

Awww, struggling...
Stupid me!
God bless that tomorrow got no figure studies classs!
I really don't wanna attend any class during exploration week
I just want to rest and get my works done
I'm now listening very old old old songs
"Pretty Woman", sing by Roy Orbison
"Stand by me", sing byBen E.King
"I'd Love you to want me", sing byLobo
"Only U (And U alone)", sing by The Platters

12.26pm now, I'm tired...
So, byebye!




JoceLyn ain't JoceLyn

JoceLyn ain't JoceLyn.


The "old" Jocelyn iz alwis happy....alwis carry the smile...
The "old" Jocelyn iz so naive and so innocent.....
The "old" Jocelyn iz no longer exist anymore....
The "old" Jocelyn iz gone....

The "current" Jocelyn would like to find back the "old" Jocelyn eagerly....
She miss her smile....
She hates crying....
She really do hate crying....
She hates her swollen eyes....
She hates her ashma will come again while crying....

25 June 2008

Finally...

Phew, was so busy in the past few days (from fri until sunday night)! I was so busy doing my assignments until I had gone crazy (T_T)

Thank god! Next week iz exploration week~but then hor, stil got plenty of assignments need to do! sigh, actually no difference as well (=_=)!

I don't care I just want to rest right now! Beside, I'm having stomach cramp =(((( pain pain pain...I'm drinkin hot milo...and iz already muh 2nd cup! *sob-s0b-sob*



18 June 2008

啤酒 . 戒或不戒

哇赛! 最近实在是天天喝酒... 也没那么夸张啦...几乎2-3天都喝吧 (=,=)

那天我朋友 Angie 才跟我提起喝啤酒会令到人肥....
而我也真觉得我最近胖了些些 >_<
下午唱 K 也能喝酒...
甚至 今天Happy Hour也在喝....哦天啊...!! -.-
我这礼拜几乎天天都在喝酒...
我怎么了?变成了酒鬼吗 =,=?
认真想想还真需要戒啤酒=,=
我超不想要啤酒肚的呀!

15 June 2008

曹格 I still believe




的确, 爱情就像个水晶球, 坚固又脆弱...
不好好的经营,水晶球就会很轻易的破碎....

爱能走过乱流吗??
能让幸福转动吗??

Do you still believe?
Do I still believe?

我们

我们的爱就一瞬间的消失了....
我们的爱已化成灰石而飞走了....
我们的爱即使要挽也挽不回来了....
我们的爱永远变成回忆....

我们的爱也会渐渐的转换成恨....

14 June 2008

looking forward....

Wish tat I made during my birthday.....
I really hope it can come true....
I'm looking forward to my happiness to come....
no matter how long does it takes, I will still keep on waiting until the day it comes.......

*happiness*

pwease fast fast come...

I need u eagerly....

13 June 2008

Life

What is life? Are you having a good life or a bad life? Life sucks? How about me? How about my life? Is there any single word can describe my life in the moment right now? I can't find any word to describe my life as my life right now is kinda complicated, I guess, I think so.

I guess my life is a combination of sadness, lies, being betrayed, and fool. Wow, all sound so emo wei. But of cos, sometimes there are happy moments in my life , but is less. Sometimes I tell myself, I should be glad after the 512 China ShiChuan Earthquake had happened. They are much more pity, they lost their house, lost their families, no food etc. I really should feel glad because I have a shelter to stay, I can eat I can drink I can go for classs I can walk I still have all my friends... Why am I complaining my life so much? Why am I alwayz feeling sorrow? But human is all like this. They always don't appreciate things which are surrounding them.

11 June 2008

*Emo Queen*

I got a new nick name for myself
That will be...
*E m o Q u e e n*
As I'm a very emotional girl, and, I always EMO~
Thus, I give myself this new nick~ [E m o Q u e e n]

I'm Emo now....
Emo.....
Emo.....
Emo.....
Emo.....
so
so
so
so
Emo.....
lar! :(
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..
..
..
..
..
There are always something behind my smile
-*Sadness alwis hiding behind my smile*-


08 June 2008

♥ Better in time ♥



i lurve <3 diz song..
it means a lot to me......
it can describe muh feelings.....
I do hope I can get
better in time............
but somehow, after listening diz song, i will become very very emo =(

512 China ShiChuan Earthquake






30 mins before the 2008 Sichuan earthquake in China

06 June 2008

♥ Joce, Eppy Burfday! ♥

31/05/2008 was muh birthday~
Celebrated on my bday eve with my lovely friends at Red Box and Sky Bar.
As I wish, I went SkyBar, finally. =)
Didn't celebrate my bday on my actual day it was because my mom was in the hospital on my bday eve night..... But don't worry, my mom's operation was successfull ! *thank god*!


I would like to thanks :
Carmen, Eeven, Erica, Chris, Tong Hao, JooHin, Hyena, Calvin for attending muh bday celebration

Thanks for da lovely Bikini, AnnaSui perfume, my fav - Tiramisu cake, "card"etc...
Thanks for all da wishes and greetings from you all.


I would like to thanks :
TJ and James

Thanks for the suprised (cake, hehe~), =) Thanks for the flowers...
Thanks for spending your time to celebrate my bday @ Sky Bar~ ^^

Well, I'm in love with Sky Bar, the view there iz FANTASTIC! Much more nicerrrrr than Luna Bar.


I would like to thanks :
My lovely frens who wish me thru sms, call, friendster & facebook~
Truely appreciated.



They are all my biatch:P
love them alot!
cant live without them....*mwah*





yumyum, don't you think iz delicious? finger lickin good!
haha~actually iz "fork" lickin good~LOL



Sky Bar, KL


Muh 2nd cake (Iz ice-cream cake!)
Thanks TJ =)


James Joce TJ




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