terrible and busy week I had

Exploration week (30/06/08 - 07/07/08)
My exploration week came and gone....

Yeah, what a busy week for me, as in busy doing nothing. Busy of yumca, sing-k, yumca, yumca, yumca....Owh muh gosh! Before the exploration week start, I had told myself that I must finished all my assignments within a week...Unfortunately, I didn't do and I still have plenty of assignments are waiting for me to complete. (T_T) Thus, tonight I gotta "drive-night-car" (what kind of eng wei, straight translate from cantonese~LOL!) People out there who don't know what the hell is "drive-night-car", let me explain to u, the meaning of it iz can't sleep and gotta rush my works for the whole night...Sth lytat lar (=,=)! However, I wasn't busy doing nothing at all, at least I did my figure studies work! :)

Terrible week? Hell yeah, I was having a terrible week as I got scolded from my parents especially my mom. Reason of getting scolded? Phone bill! This wasn't the main reason, the main reason was she didn't trust me at all! No matter what I told her, she refused to believe...so iz useless to explain and talk to her. I really have no idea how to communicate with her. We always have a huge argument once our conversation start. Yesterday we argued again. My aunt told me that she just got scolded from her in the morning, den later on my dad kena. I thought of fast fast finished my dinner to avoide of seeing her. Unfortunately, she came back after my aunt told me about it. Guess what, hell yeasss, I really kena from her. She spoilt my mood, she made me cried, she messed up my life...Well today at least she didn't come and kacao me althought she was showing me her damn black face! But Do I sound like I give a fuck of her? Hell no! As I wanna do my assignments wit a good mood! Pwease don't come and mess with me! GO AWAY GO AWAY!!!!!!!

Well, it's 9.09pm, I gotta do my assignments in a while....Just get myself a cup of white coffee. Coffee iz an essential for me, without coffee iz just like.... a fish will die without the water *LOL!* Beside coffeeeeee? iz my CIGGGgggYYY!! Yeah baby, I loveeee you both so muchie :P



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In lurve wif diz song

"Bye Bye" Mariah Carry

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

什麼叫愛情

什麼叫愛情
雖然 那是一棵樹 優美的樹

何必為了一棵樹 放棄 一整片的森林呢？



這是對一位朋友的安慰。



柏拉圖也說過，愛情 本來就難釐清

找最大的麥子 穗的故事有聽過嗎

柏拉圖的弟子 亞里斯多德 問老師說 什麼叫做愛情？

柏拉圖就帶著弟子 到一片麥田 叫亞里斯多德 不能回頭 只能一直往前走

請他從 麥田中帶回最大最飽滿的 麥穗回來

結果 亞里斯多德 跟另外兩位 分成ABC三組 橫越了麥田



A帶回一把 會枯死空殼的麥穗 B倆手空空 C 帶回一把 不大也不小的麥穗

老師 有規定他們 只能往前走不能回頭 只能摘一次 不能變卦 要摘他們心中 覺得 最大最飽滿的

A 一直走 想說 我一定要摘最好的給老師 誇 結果 走到最後一排時 雙手還是空 乾脆就隨便摘一個



B 也想摘最好滴 一路一直往前看 看到好的，還是想，後面一定還有更好的。走到最後 仍然沒有摘到 所謂好的

C 在途中 看到好的就摘了，可是，他很後悔自己摘的太早，問老師說

為什麼我不能 摘了 丟掉再摘別的呢

柏拉圖說



你們 有沒有覺得 很難選擇 甚至不知道下一秒出現的麥子將是飽滿的或是 不佳的

愛情 就像那一片麥田



你們在人生路上不斷往前走 卻也不清楚 會遇到什麼人 又會錯過什麼人

只能相信當下 只能相信自己的決定

當你願意摘下麥的那一刻 你更要相信 這把是這片麥田裡最好最飽滿的麥



因為 愛情是從信任裡開始

心真正 相信 對方 愛情的關係才會存在



相信 才會 同理心 想體貼體諒對方

相信 才會 讓另一伴 能有夠飽滿的力量 在崗位上展翅



在 距離當中 仍然覺得 不曾離開過

一旦 失去 信任 就什麼也不是 因為會像C一樣 採到飽滿的麥 仍然 想著那一整片的麥田

而選麥的過程 就像在慎選 對象一樣

A 隨手摘了一個 挺差的麥，如果 真要弄來吃 那A鐵定 無法吃飽 就像愛情上 受傷時想找替代品 溫暖自己的心，或是單身時，因為不想單身而隨便找人交往，卻沒有去考量 真得 可以接受嗎！適合嗎，這些將會造成 無法滿足之後就是...開始嫌棄

B 太堅持一定要 最好的，同時，也要問問自己的條件。活在 完美的框框裡，就很難找到；除非訂作一個情人。否則任何人在B的眼裡都是缺點比優點大，如果他的焦點改成欣賞人家的優點，那他的生活會很熱鬧又快樂，不然就得孤芳自賞了。



呼..................從希臘的小故事中 延伸的看法

我不配

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及
仔仔细细
写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望
很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪
这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅
的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及
仔仔细细
写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望
很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪
这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅
的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
我不配
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴
的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望
很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪
这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅
的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
我不配

The 1st day of the brand new month

Today, iz 1st of Julai,
as usual, yumca at my 2nd home at Kim Gary with Matt, Chris
and Patrick =)
He iz muh net fren that know thru facebook - Human Pet
Suprised that he got me a pressie from UK and he made a card for me...
hehe, felt touch le~although sometimes he iz kinda irritating cos
he alwis mentioned abt abalone abalone and shark fin =_=
Oopsss, I think I said a little bit too "loud" cos he viewed my blog b4~ *haha*
chill la patrick :P
He iz my 2nd net fren gave me bday pressie~
the 1st one iz Adrian...hehe~bought me a charm pen =)
Arigato gozaimas!

Today purposely brought out my old pictures cos wanna show matt...
and also showed to patrick and chris....lol
This was my FATTEST MOMENT wei!
u see my hand u see my hand!!!! owh muh f*cking gwod!!!!!
Do I look like a pork chop???!?!? Do u feel like eating pork right now?
hahahahah~

See muh stomach!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Macam ada 4-5 months pregnancy =_='
I am wondering...tat time how I could be able to fit into tat dress =,='
must be took a very long time wore it!
owh god, why am i keep on insulting myself la?

owh yeah owh yeah, dis iz cute diz iz cute :P
NO DOUBT!

Free cigg from chris :P
u see whose bloody middle finger was that?lol
iz CHRIS :P

Pressie tat given from Patrick~
so cute la dis bear bear~

Wait a moment pwease!
since when muh name become joyce?
doink doink patrick written wrong name n
somemore wanna said sama sahaja la
*piak*!!!! Ish-Ish.....
btw, thanks for yr card ^^


After yumca, we went to sing k!!! Yeah...wif Matt, chris, Jonathan and Melvin...
den after tat Hyena and Leong joined us as well...
from 2pm - 7pm~
Owh my god...once leong came...BEEEERRRR again!
I wan faint dy...I just told myself I wanna quit drinking beer (-,-)
2 jugs free 1 jug = 3 jugs
finished by 4 persons only =,=
I felt a little bit tipsy after tat...